I'm Sorry...Not Really

I’m sorry...

1. that I want so much
2. that I care
3. that I have hope
4. that I can’t give up
5. that I try
6. that I want to live
7. that I want to be perfect
8. that I don’t know what perfect is
9. that I don’t want to be a copy
10. that I want to be unique
11. that I cry
12. that I scream
13. that I want to be known
14. that I want to be understood
15. that I know the difference between being known and being understood
16. that I blame myself
17. that I blame everyone else
18. that I can’t seem to stay still
19. that I feel trapped
20. that I accuse others of enclosing me
21. that I feel left out
22. that I don’t belong
23. that I can’t find what I’m looking for
24. that I spill things
25. that I drop things
26. that I have to fix other people’s spelling errors
27. that I know how to
28. that I don’t give a damn
29. that I keep making this list longer
30. that I want attention
31. that I feel neglected
32. that I feel abandoned
33. that I feel neglected
34. that I said that twice
35. that I don’t know what to do
36. that I do whatever it is I do
37. that I want to grow up
38. that I want to stay young
39. that I obsess over things
40. that I over-analyze
41. that I…lower my head in disappointment and shame
42. that I like to be prepared
43. that I never stop
44. that I don’t know when to stop
45. that I am poor
46. that I like to be proper
47. that I am under pressure
48. that I can’t resist
49. that I don’t give in
50. that I contradict myself
51. that I don't look like you
52. that I don't want to look like you
53. that I wish I could live like a queen
54. that I refuse not to be me
55. that I am my own worst enemy
56. that I would never let you get the best of me
57. that I can keep on going with this list
58. that I don't have nearly enough time for this...